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Saturday, September 30, 2006

FiNALLy.. i GEt TO sit InfrONt of my Comp aNd Blog. (tHanx to my virused cursed computer. i cant even log into blogger.) BODOH!

What shall i talk abt today?
i feel like writing something. but.. hmmm.. ok..
i got something.. here it goes ( alamak! my internet lagging lah! cannot type properly!again bodoh!)

Last few week, while "busily" working at my workplace, i listened to Ria Fm in the segment of "THe O Show" by DJ Fiza O. Its a segment where people tell their secret and their identity will not be exposed. heh~ What i like about this show is that, i learn alot from people's experience. Sometime i feel that "oh! there people who suffer worst than me". So it makes me a wiser person ... in some ways la har..

So.. as i was saying, i listened to the story of this lady. She's married for..erm. i think 7 yrs if i'm not mistaken. she has a daughter and now carrying a 7 or 8 month unborn child in her. She has a husband (duh~) whom she loves very very much. Once upon a time, her husband was a boyfren of her own best fren. They were lovers before. So in love that they were planning to get married. But initially, the girl's parents did not approved of her relationship with her boyfren. If i remember it correctly, the girl got married to another guy that her parents decided for her. Yeah, matchmake. What happen to her boyfren? Well, he sulk and did not contact with her back. After a few years, he appeared and decided to get married with his ex-girlfren's best fren. I think there's more storries in between but the lady jus cut the story short. Actually i forgot, whether the guy got married before the ex girlfren or the other way. Whatever it is, they did not get married to each other. K, the interesting part. One day, the storyteller break the news to her husband that her best fren (her husband ex-lover) was already a divorcee. After telling that news, she could have sworn she saw a smile on her husband face. But she did not thought anyting bad about it. Then, she decided to visit her best fren at her place. She brought along her husband and her daughter. So while having chit chats with her long time best fren, she excuse herself to the kitchen to make a drink or something like that. Then her daughter ran into the kitchen and tell her mother, "Mommy, why is Daddy holding hands with Aunty?"
The Storyteller began to suspect something but she just kept quiet about the situation. Remember, she was pregnant that time and to think her husband did all that! Then one day, as she was clearing the storeroom while her husband was working late, she found a diary or probably letters that her husband wrote. In the letters he wrote( again if i'm not mistaken cos its been so long and i couldnt remember much details), "I still love my ex-girlfriend and I will never stop loving her. I swear (see people he use the word swear some more) that she will be mine one day! And i will be hers!"
So, that's her secret. She emailed to the DJ that she still loves her husband and she is so scared that he'll leave her. And she doesnt wanna get stress becos she is dueing anytime soon. I feel so sad for her. How could her husband did this to her. Doesn't he knows the priorities of a husband? I may not know much about marriage but all i know, i'm a woman. How shattered my heart will be or any woman will be if they found out her husband has other feelings for another person. The worst thing is, that another person is ur own best fren. Oh i didnt mention that the best fren of this storyteller still has feelings for her ex-lover. To whoever reading this story and has the same situation like this, for the men, pls, love ur wife. No matter how ugly she can be, how bad she is, she is afterall ur wife and accepted u as her husband, hoping that u will take care of her til the day she close her eyes (unless she's cheating on u, that mite be a different case). To the ladies, be strong. Do not give up. Heartbreak will be ur fren, tears will quench ur thirst. If u fight for ur rights, I'm sure it'll pay off. But pls dun create a catfight. That's not wat women should do. When our patience and strong-willed attitude conquer us, we will gain respect.
U know, i don't even why i sound like this. i'm not even a qualified counsellor but well, i'm jus sharing my thoughts. But if feel that ur man is not man enough for you, jus sing ur lungs out "HE WASN'T MAN ENOUGH FOR ME" by toni braxton or "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!" by barbra streisang and err.. i forgot who. ahahah!
k.. cherios!

strike a pose: 10:47 PM

Saturday, April 15, 2006

wow.. how bizarre..

i'm blogging on a sunday noon.. hehehehe
going to East Coast Park later w my relatives for some picnic... hope i'll enjoy myself there.. urghh.. i hope my fav cousin is there..she's my only playmate~ hawKHAWHAKWAKWAHKWKA! I LOP U FIZZY LADY~

i slept at abt 2am yesterday. i wasnt sleepy til i read this someone's blog.

how do i come across her blog? well, it all started by my gorgeous kin..
she came to me in MSN complaining abt this girl who actually had "bookmark"ed her in friendster. So out of curiousity, she went to her account and check her profile and pics. She was certain that she did not know her at all. But only to find out that the girl's boyfren was someone who send frenster msg to kin. Hmm... what do u all think? Y did someone.. or rather some girl, have to bookmark another girl? hmmmm... *points to ponder*
So, kin decided to check the girl's blog. K lets call this bookmarker, "R" shall we? So Kin proceed to check her blog.. To her horror..( eh sounds like i'm telling a ghost story pulak) she read "R"'s blog and paste to me what she read there...Well, it was something like "to all those bitches out there, if any of u come in between my life and my relationship, i'll make sure u'll suffer!" .. erm it was something like that lah...

From her blog i can sense she's very possesive person but who am i to judge that person rite? i barely even know her. Well.. i'm only judging her by wat pple wana judge her. i mean, jus look at her frenster. MOST of the pics are her pics and her guy... she really bestowed upon him. I know she cares for him so so much. & in her blog, all she wrote abt is her bf.. i mean.. COME ON GIRLFREN!! LOOK AT THE OTHER SIDE OF THE ROAD!! UR BOYFREN IS NOT THE ONLY PERSON U SHUD BE EAGER TO LOOK AT EVERYDAY.. THERE ARE BEAUTIFUL THINGS LIKE THE FLOWERS, THE TREES, THE CLOUDS, THE SKY, OTHER HANDSOME MEN, OTHER GORGEOUS LESBIANS, THE POLITICS, THE WAR, THE PEACE PPLE TRYING TO MAKE.. ALOTTA THINGS!!!!!!!!! hahaha..

pardon my rudeness.. all i'm trying to say is tat, she's really really in love w her boyfren whom she's getting engage with very soon (i read it from her blog lah where else..) . I'm not against any girl to fall in love with a boy. i mean, it IS the nature rite? but to fall in love too deeply is ... not right. cause wat i can see is if anything happen to them.. (ok.. go on.. touch wood), the one who's gonna suffer most is "R".. probably her bf will also be hurt but HEY! WHO' S THE ONE SENDING FRENSTER MSG TO OTHER GIRLS??

please don say i'm jealous or anything. Truly i'm not. i'm happy with the way my life is right now. i rarely meet my bf. But its ok. it makes me miss him more.. He once said to me, he hope both of us do not have high hopes with each other cos if we fall too hard, it'll be very very painful. & indeed he had gone thru that life. So here i am, tho i do have feelings for him but i'm trying my best not to be so much crazily obsessively possesively in love w him.. and i hope "R" wont be like that. Gd luck to "R"... :)

strike a pose: 10:02 PM

Friday, March 31, 2006

Life without career.
What do you think?

I jus got my results. Actually i knew my result long time ago but i jus received the mail this morning. I didn't do pretty well. But hey, for once in my poly life, i achieved an A!! HeH! YeaH.. you guys probably think... "So Wat?"

yeah to me.. so wat too. but it gives me an impression of something. The module that i achieved an A for this is nothing about my course. K.. let me be frank. Its a communication skill for work Module. yeah.. for u guys its easy to get A for it. well.. maybe its my luck to obtained great lecturers for this module. Y? They're the only ones who called me 'Angelina jolie'. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! Yes. Weird but true. Funny but great feeling! Honestly, i did make great impression to them. Well, maybe due to my vibrant personality. I enjoy their teaching like they enjoy my presence in class. HaHAHAHAHAH! not saying i'm the class clown or anything, but for once in my life, i feel important. i feel much much confident in myself. Other days i jus kept quiet in class and would not ask questions cos i'm afraid that i'll ask silly questions. i admit i was too self conscious. Well, this module has actually taught me something important. Not to be afraid or feel intimidated. I always do feel that way whenever i'm facing an interviewer. i got nervous til they can hear trembleness in my voice. And suddenly my brain has gone to timbaktoo for a while. I couldn't think straight. But i'm fortunate to have those lecturers who always laugh at my silly-ness. One of them actually said.. i should be in the entertainment industry. Erm .. actually.. alot of people said the same thing. But trust me people. When i got the camera to face me, all i can think of is to show my butt in front of that camera. i am indeed video-camera shy. hahahahah! how bizarre..

Oh well, i learnt my lesson from my experience interview. i must be confident, and show that i'm not afraid of anyone and i must show a lil bit of my crazy personality. One of my best frens used to say, Personality outwins Beauty. ... i'll take that to heart.

*peace be upon you*

strike a pose: 3:17 PM

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Sugar N Spice...

Girls N Boys...

Sweets N Candies...

Curry N Chicken?

Happy Over Belated to ME!

"Once upon a March,11,2006, my best buddies in the world attacked my lil cottage for the sake of celebrating my birthday that wasn't being celebrated. Get That? i hope so. So Today, they ransack my place and cook for me.. ok.. what a word.. ransack.. hahahaha! Well.. dun u jus love these girls who actually willing to cook for u? K its not u. Its for me. Get that? So i was being chased out from the kitchen as they told me that i'm the Birthday Girl and i shouldnt be helping. How Sweet! if OnLy aLL fRieNds Are LiKe that~ hahaHAHAaHAh! i love my girls..so very much. ThaNkx MaMAsitAs~"

But today is not so of a good day to start with. i was rejected in an interview. not gonna say what company but jus understand that I WAS REJECTED. so badly. k Actually not. but I Jus cant HandLe RejectiOn Well! i'm trying my best to be Optimist. i guess i wasnt given a chance to express my inner personality which outwins my outer beauty (easy to say i'm pretty inside, not so pretty outside. but who the hell am i to judge myself?) .

Despite being shitty for one whole day, i make a new friend in starBucks at Tjg Pgr. He motivates me. He actually has hope and believes that i can achieve my dreams! hey! remember He's a stranger at first n we only jus met but how cool was it when this "stranger" actually has strong believe i can do it! Dang. I'll tell u more about this guy.. in the next blog. if i ever blog again. hahaha!

I Think i'm ready to eat wat my best girlfrens has been cooking. (What took them so long?)

strike a pose: 4:39 AM

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

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nobodees...

strike a pose: 6:35 AM